BEING TWENTY - SOMETHING
Hmm...it's finally Friday!! woohoo!!! Another weekend to enjoy, rest and relax! No wait...I doubt there's gonna be much rest and relax as Ryan's parents are in town for the weekend, so we'll be spending most of our weekend with them. Not quite sure what we are gonna do (shopping *hint*)...but I'm almost certain it's gonna be fun (i hope). We're gonna meet up with them tomorrow, so tonight we're gonna go to the movies and maybe walk a little in Waikiki.
Need to do some "lite" spring cleaning as well at the apartment...it's a M E S S (okay...so maybe not "lite")!! shame...if anyone were to come to the apartment as we have things (not mentioning what) all over. Anywaes...enough on the apartment and cleaning....moving on....
So here i am at the office (boss still away on business trip) and am on the internet, browsing the web. Well actually checking one of the many email mailboxs i have. Reading through my emails (sorry if I haven't been replying my mail on a regular basis) but this one forward from a friend caught my attention and I actually took the time to read the whole damn thing. So figured I shared it here with y'all. Let me know what you think....if you have anything to note or comment....enjoy :)
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They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion....
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So...everyone have a wonderful and fun weekend. Until my next blog, take care and aloha!
xoxo

moi spoke out loud on 3/05/2004 09:17:00 AM

[0] told me everything loud and clear